Thoughts and Wishes on Family

Last year I did less posts about myself and made more general ones. Since this is my own blog and I'm willing to share my personal life too I'll talk a bit more about my thoughts and how I see things from my point of view. 

Family is where fights go on for most of the time with me. I know that we don't really mean it but sometimes we express our opinion in a bit harsh way still we all agree on one thing at the end. It's necessary no matter how small things are, you can't ignore feelings, kids, opinions, gifts, going-out, little chit-chats and all the other stuff that should go in between. Even fights are essential like what really matters that you all are on one result at the end. 

 
For many years now I thought if you don't get the supposed love and care you shouldn't pay attention to it cause it's not important. Days pass by and prove me wrong. The reason for me to do this is not to feel so miserable like I keep on blaming my bad luck for having such family instead I told myself it's not that much of an important so if you don't get it no big deal. I wanted to ease on myself but I didn't look for one to fill up that gab in me. 

No matter how small and silly things look or a kid's talk and wishes sound they are all important and that's how love grows. Sisters are okay, since we are girls we can go with each other but boys have always been a trouble for me. I know I'm 23 already now and my brother will finish high school soon but we're not apart yet so I can still try with him. 

Though they say the one who lost it can't give it, I'll try my best to give my family what I didn't receive from the in the first place. It's the hard times that shows how your family care about you. Mine did show some and I'm happy for that, even it's broken it's still good and that all that matters. 

If I get to build my family I'll give my all to them and make the best one there will ever be.  

And it's Here

May you have a blessed 2013 new year.

Greetings will be going left and right, from east to west for the New Year. I’ll be adding my voice to them and wish along a happy and cheerful year. May it start with happy events and signs for things you were long waiting for.

 
Last year still looks new to me, as if we are in the beginning but we’re done already that shows how much time I spent focusing on one thing. Well, that’s over now and we’re off to a new start. This year will be different by god’s willing, I’m planning to carry things the other way. In fact, I already prepared for them in advance since December last year, and my blog is included as well.

I’ll take it as something not done everyday so I’ll give more space to myself and my readers. I’ll take my time and give a new look too.

Running a blog isn’t as easy as I thought maybe cause I did it the hard way sort of, but the lovely part about it is the writing itself. I love it so much and like talking my thoughts in here. Though it’s stressful somehow if you try to make it 100% perfect I was thinking of doing more. Just few days ago read this thing about how should one not worry what others think about him cause it’s the right and mature thing to do still we do look for their thoughts. Taking this in mind I’m planning to make a blog for my Japanese-kanji learning progress and one for my plushie too. I won’t make it compolsary as I did with this one but take it rather easy and write whenever it’s right.

The Japanese will be for my learning, tips to give away and people’s feedback and review of what I write. Plushie is almost the same, I’m not thinking of any tutorials just the way my softies turn out and stuff to give away. As for this blog I’ll try to make it something new with more creative and activating stuff.

As for now these are the new resolutions I have for the New Year. They are for online stuff only and I do have some outside the web world. What are your new resolutions for this year?!

A Whole Year Blog

So, we're at the very end today. The last day of 2012, it was great. 

One of the goals I had for this year is the have a full year posted blog, and here it is. I add few more labels to this place I was hoping to have it a bit more exciting but this is what I ended up with. I surely love what I write cause I do it from my heart though there are a lot of my favorite I choose some to share with you as all time loveable ones

They're all from my personal talks... 

When All Troubles Gather Up

Let Me Give you a Hand

Let's Talk Positively

More Than a Reason

There's actually more and more and more. I just picked up a few. 
Please do share which ones you liked the most

And There it Goes

So, it's the end of the year already! 

We started this year with many dreams and wishes. Some are done and some are missed still we did are best and lived it through the very end. I did all I can but I still missed really big issue and hoping to make them up this year. 

Here are a bit of what I accomplished this year: 

* Kept up this blog for a post everyday
* Found a new job and stayed there for a year
* Got a bit more social
* Got back to my Japanese

Sadly there are the only things but at least I did some better than none. I discovered new things and learnt more about the world and people. Troubles and problems taught me how to deal with life and people that I never thought I'll met like them in my life. 

Overall, it was an okay year. I hope yours was okay too. 
Do share what was it like for you =) 

Your True Worth

A man was giving a literature about believing in one’s self then he pulled out a 500 note from his wallet and said: “If I were to give this away to anybody for free?! Who would take it!?” Many people raised their hands in favor of taking it, then he squished the note with his plame and asked again ; "Does anybody still want it?!" The hands didn't go down, there were still up. Again he throw it on the ground and stepped on it, it was very filthy and got some dirt on it, lastly he asked; "Anyone!?" They still wanted it. 

Then he said, we people are like the note of money. We fail down, get upset and even get some depression dirt on us but we don't lose our value just like you guys wanted it cause despite getting through all that it remind the same in the value. 

So, that's how life is. You will fall down and go through a lot but your worth will be the same. The factors and going through won't change a bit from it.   

Monday Thoughts on Failures in Life

Failing! What an ugly word!

Bet there’s a lot who doesn’t want to have any in their life but whether we want it or not we did fail in some point and would make it up to our purposes.

Still it’s okay, right!?

I mean without them we wouldn’t have learnt precious lessons. Without failing I wouldn’t want to go up again. Sometimes, I went up just because to prove I’m not a failure rather than the goal itself. It also was the greatest push that allowed me to forward more than any other factor.

When failing it’s a hard feeling, as if you are a complete loser can’t do anything at all, like a dead person who can’t make any difference. There’s also that fear that comes afterward that you won’t success or don’t want to try just to not have that feeling again. I know how hard that is cause I went through all of them. 

But you know what the fun part is, is when you fail many times then at the end with determination you make it. It shows how your tries were worth it, the many you get the many you feel proud of. I know without them I wouldn’t have figured things out, many I would have been on the right path all the time but if I faced something new or a problem I know nothing about I won’t be able to fix it.

Failing is not a problem on its own, it hurt but in a useful. Unless you pull yourself out of it, you’ll remain lost. Try seeing why it happened, a wrong turn perhaps, not right time, your mood was down. Whatever is the reason has to be done by you.

If determination, people, dreams and desires are reason to success that failure is the strongest one of them all!

Little Rather None

You know how boring life becomes when there’s nothing to do or the same things keep on repeating themselves over and over again. Sometimes we can’t help it cause they have to be done but to have them everybody creates a really boring routine that you rather not do. 

Or you keep on doing them the same way every time. Same time, same things, same result, same method and all the stuff that makes you yawn from boredom. Not everything you can leave for something new or stop doing them, but there’s always something else to add to make it different and a bit more fun to do.

There are things you can do to have a refreshing life again …

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Home is Where You Belong not Come from

There’s a difference between house and home.

The first one is where you live; it can be anywhere with your family or without them. There can be other people too. While the other one is where you live with your family and it’s yours. Like no rent or anything cause simply it’s the one place you belong to when there’s no other one to go.

As I have this on mind I always think of KSA as my home, home country that is. Yeah! I know I’m Asian which means I’m not a Middle Eastern but sill I feel like this is my home. All my life, ever since I was born and even when I was in my mother’s body I was here, born here, grew up here, went to school and even finished my education. I know the entire place, the native language, the customs, people, events and festivals, everything a native would know, is me. 

You see when they say home they mean like this, to know everything, to be part of, it doesn’t really matter which language you use to most as long as you can blend with the people around you. When you can go anywhere not having that cold feeling of a stranger in the wild that is your home, just like mine.

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Once Every 100 Year

Today's date is very special, the kind that happens rarely every time. 
It's .... 12 - 12 -12, unique, huh?!

I got nothing much to say about date itself but rather something really important I learnt this year. Surely I've seen better days but this year was completely different. 

People aren't like before anymore and in the same time I can't just say everybody is a lair cause one of them betrayed us before. They will come and go in our life and if we got hurt by one of them it doesn't mean to lock ourselves in a room and close the door from any other harm. The thing is the learn our to deal with them and not give our trust to whoever. 

I know I've already sided the not forgiving people but know I learnt there's more in life that just being mad at someone. I even realized the power of forgiving. Life is short and if we can't help others live their lives free from guilt then there's no meaning in that. 

This year my heart has grown stronger not from winning a fight or crushing someone but from learning how to forgive. It's a hard thing only the strong ones can do it and I do consider myself one since it was hard on myself once in the past. 

I hope you too learnt something this year that you had a negative thought about before. 

There are Things we Can't Stop but Deal with

Things that can't be undo, that won't be back, no matter how much tear is wasted and burning wishes are hold, they won't stop.

Losing something, someone or even yourself is like death that means everything is over, and this time for good! A hard time and situation where others will comfort with relaxing and take it easy words while for the one who lost, it's like the end of the world.

Honestly! No one but them will understand it since they are the ones who are going through this. It's like half of the self is here in the present  while the other half is in the afterlife world. It's more than just a sorrow, more ....   

than changing your profile picture to an EMO one.

than that feeling when you miss you favorite show.
 
than listening a song that has sad lyrics
 
than turning everything black-ish all of a sudden
 
than updating Facebook with gloomy updates
 
than not seeing your lover for one night
 
than getting yelled at for no reason just because
 
than being misunderstood by others
 
than not having anything to eat or even drink for the whole day
 
than hearing bad things are being said behind your back
 
than being abounded and down
 
than being hated by the ones who should love you!
 
than being misunderstood
 
than being betrayed after giving your all and being faithful for those who don't deserve it
 
than not talking the whole day cause someone upset you
 
It's OVER! Certain and no back up on this one!

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Today will never come AGAIN!

I used to be one of those people will live in the future, more like hold myself from every thing so I will enjoy them later on. I didn’t give myself the things it longed to and was so unfair with it.

When time came near I realized this and thought of making out with myself. I was hard, I really was! I know now that time is short and that we’ll once live once or no one knows how long so why not give it everything now rather than the future that I don’t know if I’ll ever live till it or not?!

No one grantees anything, not even what will happen today. You have start with wonderful morning but you can’t make sure it’ll last like this till the evening or even noon, can you?! I’m not telling you to take things badly just think positively, something good might happen too, on the opposite, never take any chances for bad stuff or happen or ruin you mood.

Starting from today or better yet from now do all those stuff you hold yourself from, no matter how small or silly you think they are, at least you are doing what you want. Not doing them now will be the biggest regret will wish you never had.

Even if I’m at the end or before it I’ll be doing what I want cause if I finish it’ll be like I came to an end with doing what I like. It’s sad when you know that you kept for the later time and start with it is over already.

So better live today than tomorrow and always think positive.

Every Ending was a Beginning Once

I’m so in this thought right now. The New Year is still far away yet this line is in my mind since a month or so. I always look forward to the ends but this time I hope the present will last forever though I know it won’t.

So, how was everything lately?!

Well, I know it’s a bit too early for it but it won’t hurt for the things we learnt so far, no!? As for the beginning I was so excited for the new year to come that is 2012 and I have good believes and truly optimistic that everything well go well. In fact they did but not as I thought. Everything was okay I guess. 

I always wonder how every year is new at the start and old at the end, I guess the secret behind it is that there’s another one afterward. Like if there isn’t anything later it won’t be an old one rather the last.

I always like to start my projects with the start of the year or month, it seems more exciting that way and I feel really fresh and once it’s at the middle and I couldn’t keep up my plans I don’t have the mood to carry on as if like the beginnings give me more intentions to do my projects. It’s a bad thing you know, cause you’ll be like delaying you stuff just for the time while you can start from anywhere. This year I learnt to leave this bad habit but didn’t over come it completely still I’m trying. 

Anything you take from the start is really interest, you feel like you can do it, you wake up really early in the morning to get on with, give it extra more times and totally enjoy yourself doing them. Even when time passes by the real thing you’ll need is the desire. Time won’t do you much, okay maybe the one you need to finish your stuff in beside that like the perfect or right time isn’t needed. What you need is the will and thing, not when and where.

Guess this is one of the precious things I learnt this year and wanted to add to my memorable post. Please do write down the most important one you learnt too this year. I’d love you learn from you too ^^

Blessings and Gratitude

As going through this life I went through many situations just like any other persons. There are times when I thought I own the world, times when things seemed okay and hard times when I was totally broken. All these taught me different lessons to the time I was living in.

Over all I realized something really important that can’t be taught with money. Even when you don’t get what you’re looking for you should always be grateful to whatever you got cause owning something you can use is better than the thing you’re just longing. I’m not saying you can’t wish for new stuff but if it took a long time or you couldn’t find it at the end you shouldn’t be upset at all.

There was a moment in my life I need a job so badly that I said I would give anything for it and now that it’s been almost a year since I had it I realized that real things I had before it! It’s ironic, no!

True that money helped me a lot and made me do things I wasn’t able to before but compared to achievements I did before having it was less. It’s amazing! REALLY!  While I was expecting the opposite I was totally wrong but I did find that out with my own personal experience.

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Live Today not Tomorrow

I was just in this thing late and thought I'll share my point of view about it. 

Like everybody else I was so depressed for a job in a while, around a year ago. I'll gave it everything to find one and I did find two at first. I didn't like them much so I left for another one. Currently I'm nearly to finish one year in this job I'm recently in. So needed by it I spent the whole time for it that I forgot myself and didn't enjoy life much. 

Some things happened and I knew that my days are few to see the beautiful things in life and oh! How much I regret this! It happens a lot right!? When we so go by ourselves and becomes salves without meaning it, forgetting about the ones who should give time to, the things who should do to out bodies and health and most importantly the time to spend for ourselves!? 

You know what's the saddest part?! 

That you know you're at the end and can't do anything but regrets cause time has gone already and you can't get that one back. It's so frustrating. 

This is an inspiring blog and I don't like wring such gloomy posts but in the same time I want you to open your eyes if you are working like a machine just like I used to do. I opened my eyes and even if it's late I want to enjoy life and whatever it left however I can. 

Starting this month I'll do all the things I kept myself away from it, I'll go with the gals, talk with my family more and go exploring the places I was having in store for free times. The right time is just now, it's can't get any better so go for it. 

I'll go in this journey to the very end and until I get 23. 
You should do too, just open your eyes and enjoy life before having nothing but regrets.

A Push to Begin

When I fail as doing something I aimed to I get really frustrated and upset. 

I think it's a normal thing since we have expectation for things we do. But it's not what we feel, it's how we remain afterwards. Feeling sad when failing is okay since you're just expressing your thoughts but staying there forever will deferentially kill you. 

Cry for sometime and write if you wish like I do then think, do you really want to stay like this forever!? without doing any progress?! You may have failed at first but how did you know you won't success if you try again?! I know you'll already hurt but giving it another shot won't be as painful as the first one, no!? 

 There was a time when I failed big time and stopped doing anything else just cause the first shot was so painful. I stayed in the lost for a long time, I did it over and over again thinking that it'll make me better and I was completely wrong since it either didn't effect much or made it worth. I thought it has to do with the stuff I'm following that I realized it was just me. 

If I'm hurting myself already why not try again?! I mean like if I did I'll gain something at the end while if I kept doing what I'm doing I'll only kill myself with no possibilities at the end. While if I keep on going I'll meet new chances I didn't expect before. 

It might be hard but it's worth the try, have you ever been in such situations before?!
Please write about it, I love to learn from everybody. 

Battle of Good and Bad

The life in this world has a lot to say about. 

Everybody got their own thoughts about it, this blog is full of thoughts of my own. Go on to the Personal Talk label if you wanna check some of them. You'll face many things, one of the life things that you'll deal with is people. 

And when I say people and mean like a very wide possibility and chances of everything. Their personality, color, life, way of living, effect, sound and everything else that makes a different in your life. 

A piece of coin has it's own faces, as well as all the things we see in life. 

There's is good and there is bad. 

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It Takes a Lot of Courage to Change ~

Whether you had the idea of changing today or intending to do it some day, it’ll take a lot from you in order to become the new person you want.

It’s scary for many reasons, human by natural fear anything new when they don’t know what it will come out as. We do it for caution sake and to keep ourselves safe from any harm, yet it is also important to look for what’s best for us. 

Have courage to change

Changing for the better, a new person, leaving old bad habits, going somewhere far, making relation or even the things that might think they aren’t that much of a big deal needs a lot of courage from you.

You have to be strange and face the difficult with a thinking mind, learn from the mistakes and take them as advantages for you. Remember, there will be times when you have crazy thoughts but you have to be brave cause that’s what it’ll cast you to get to your dreams.

Have faith in yourself, you really can do more than what do you think and the only way to find out is let yourself out in the world and see for yourself the things you can get accomplished. Believe me, you can do it, you have the power in you =) 

Peacefully Life in the Hurtful World

Not trying to be negative or anything here but ...
we all agree on the world really sometimes seems like that, no?!

You just don't get what you're being insulted by the strange passing by guy, or why your class maters keeps on bullying you, then there's that annoying co-worker who won't shut their mouth. We all have our shares in these moments in life, but we gotta learn how to live with them to get the peaceful life everybody wants.

I know I get annoyed whenever these happens, that's why I do certain things that's make me comfortable, in the same time their silly dos won't effect me much.

5 simple things to live peaceful here ^^

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Revive an Act of Kindness

This happened to me one night that made me believe in people's goodness again. Sometimes when you are totally down and so like feel you had enough from people, life shows you again that there are more than what you are going through and most importantly, you're not alone.

I was going to run an errand with my sister, my mother came along with us. That place was kinda creepy for us since only men where there. Anyhow, we finished our stuff already then wanted to go to our last stop. The thing was we didn't know how to get there so we asked one of the securities there; he was kind and polite with his reply. When we knew how far was the place we were ready to go home.

After a while that gentle guy approached us and offered us a ride there. At first we were confused since it's like rare to happen these days as we believe plus he was a high rank position to do such thing, I believe it was an act of humbleness.

We agreed and I was like thoughtless and so. As we got there he said that he would take the trouble to do the thing himself but my mother was so shy for causing him more, even though she let him do it since he insisted. After some time he got back finishing what we asked him to.

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Freedom of Soul

Human beings tend to grow up in a society, ever since they are kids they belong somewhere. Their family, then their school and work place, when they make their own family and so on.

People on different ages and whatever mind they have they always liked being individual. Free in others means. They like doing what they want, when then want it the way they want it. I believe having your own voice followed in something is every single person's like.

There are times when things come in the way of doing so. Sometimes – mostly in the beginning of your life – you stay under your parents who don’t allow you to do whatever you wish for learning and raising sake. Then there's the school environment where you have to do as they ask you do understand how to follow rules and apply them in your life. You work doesn't need to explain on how much following-to-the-rules you should be. So goes the rest of the places. 

Either way, everybody wants freedom. 

But if we want to know the real meaning behind this word, how would you define it?!

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